Then
Broken thoughts on a shattered night. I remember the way you embraced me.
Awkward, yet tight.
I want to pull back, the closeness bothers me,
Like a sweaty summer day, swatting at mosquitoes,
But I freeze.
Your eyes watch me, unaware that I too am watching.
The whites, a cream color with chocolate swirls,
Captivating my attention.
No emotions flow out, no tears, no words.
I just watch your face glow, your youthful smile opens.
Now
Stepping in I expect an embrace,
Just shadows loom over your eyes, unwelcoming.
I see the flicker of exhaustion wipe off your stained face,
Molding expressions aimlessly.
Overworked thumbs, press keyboards robotically,
Thundering away, as I listen in agony.
Watching as the twitch of your mouth curls, but not enough.
I stand waiting…
For your first words.